time.

now that i have my house de-christmas'd, there is no excuse for me to leave my many five readers in the lurk so long in between posts. my goal this week, along with other goals, is to post at least FOUR times!! you can all hold me accountable if i do not make good on my word.


it's amazing how quickly the weekends go by, and time in general. i have a hard time believing so much time has passed since mom died. it doesn't seem possible she's been gone for so long, and that i haven't been able to see/talk/hug her. it makes me think that my whole life, including college, i probably never went more than six weeks without seeing my mom. i talked to her at least once a day, usually several times, either on the phone or online. and while i still talk to mom, it's a little different these days. i talk to and pray to her when i wake up, when i am running (more of walking these days), and before i fall asleep each night. i know she's listening, and sometimes i feel her answering and responding to me, but i so wish it was the physical response i long for and miss.


i know mom is in a better place than us, and i know she is at peace. i will use this to comfort me as i am missing her.